i cried cause its not enough!

i cried again, i cried and its feels like my heart burning,
i cant swallow my own saliva, its something stuck on my throat.
now, i cried my life out. i cant stop and my eyes tired.
but nothing could ever buried the pain and sadness.

i posting into my blog, so i will feel calm.
i dont know whats the best i should do,
its all that left for me, i give everything, even my own life, i sacrificed my happiness, my soul.
but it wont work out as well and 'it not enough!'. ;(

why? why until today, i could never achieve something nice and good???

unstoppable Tears.

unstoppable tears,
u really bring the pain and fears,
which i cant stand further.
please..please..go away from me,
my heart now shrinking, believe me
sometimes i rather die , and i wont be back to be me.

why on earth no body understand me,
why nobody see inside me,
i try my best, but no one could ever see,
make me feel like lost alone with my ship in the sea.

Allah! please you forgive me,
cause i sacrifice everything for love,
and i never care if there's nothing left for me.
cause this is the truth me, but no one could ever see.

:(

mary go round

after all i have sacrificed ,
all the tears that i wasted,
all the love that i spread,

i was said to play "round and round" all this while.


thank you for so understanding me.

i want to start..

to do poem i guess.
might have a chance to improve my not so good english.

i enjoy my life,
with my guy,
this is not lie, if i said without him i could rather die.

so, that all for today,
its not much yet enough to say! :)

When the rain refused to drop

its 5 december,
so fast..

the tittle, just popped out from my head,
its kinda simple, meaningful, and... which i dont know how to explain.

when the Rain refused to drop. The the flower will die, the grass will dry, and the fish will cry.
the flower it needs sun, yes. but it needs the water (rain) as well. i mean wild flower. How bout the fish? the grass?

when the Rain refused to drop.

when the people disobey the King,

when the Mom never care about the child.

when the top management never consider the staf.

why she so Emotional, and so selfish??


wallahualam.. alahamdullilah, im happy and i enjoy my life now, even someone throwing stone along.

like i care! :)

i just dont know what i crapping bout, please ignore me. as if i have a reader..hahahha..peace!

its friday again

teehhee... its friday again. its my fav day you know, cause tomorrow and after tomorrow, it will be an offday for me. :)

weekend, i usually hangout with mom, to groceries, breakfast together, have a chit chat. watching TV, its kinda fun you know. But soon, insyallah, i will find out an activities which will bring something in return when i do it. like sewing, designing.. hurrmm,,,,8_8

hurmm,, kinda miss my Anas. he will be coming this 25 dec, my birthday! im planing to make his day here awesome!

salam all! have a superb nice day!

end of November 2011

its today,
tomorrow November will be leaving,
then , coming the December. which the month i adore so much.
its cold, rainy, cloudy, and romantic. :)

25 December Anas♥ will be coming to visit my family. especially my father.
i hope everything will be fine and well.

this year, i will be celebrating my new year in KL, with Anas♥. 
its considered as the first new year that he will be beside me.

im hoping for the best time, hoping for the best day and  the best life.

til then.