I write out whats inside my..

Heart,,
my heart, she's really Hell worried at this moment,

probably you guys wont get what im trying to write hear.

ive been waiting for him, 'Anas'... the one who i loved so much since the first day i met him on june 2008.
i received a call from baghdad, from his friend. He told me Anas being arrested due to some issues during proceeding in court. What's most tearing my heart down is, he's will staying in jail for about 3 weeks.

Ya Allah... My tears rain like a fountain. I was like...speechless, i lost all the words from my mouth.
"please dont worry, his family will do something after i met them later"

"i wish to talk to him, can you help me in anyway so i can talk to him...pleaseee!"

"i cant make it for you, cause they police arrested him, and now he is in jail..but dont worry, he will be hold in there for a month"

"A month?? Astargfirullah.... how could i get any updates from him?"

"i must hang up now, i have to see anas's family"  tutttt....its hang up.

then, my vision all blur, the tears wont stop, i stand at bedroom's window and i look up. Ya Allah!... please help me this time, i cant lose him, please help me make everything smooth... both of us plan a nice future ahead.pleasee...

my heart melted, my tears running down.

Now, im packing my things, tomorrow im going to travel for work. But anything seems not going right, i cant stop thinking about him even a second. How is he now? is he fine now? its all my fault cause if im not hurting him before, this thing wont happened.

still i need to packing, tomorrow im going to KL for travel. and will be back in a week. What i must do now? if i can, i will travel to the country to see him, but thats impossible.. what i can do anyway?

his sister called me, and she told me that anas is fine, and she told me , not to worry about him.

but, only Allah know whats inside my heart now, its like a twister and worst earthquake now in my heart....



"Ya Allah! please, make everything smooth for me and him, please save him from anything bad... cause its my heart, i cant live without it..."



*tears drop....